I screamed without sound. Aging made me small in other people’s eyes—a slow erasure into irrelevance.
To be female and growing older felt like being sentenced to invisibility.
My years were written in the body: softened skin, mapped scars, a landscape of lived days.
Yet inside, the soul churned, restless and unfinished.
Hadn’t surrender to God been meant to make me whole?
I carried shame and guilt like heavy pendants,
each one a proof that I’d failed someone else’s design.
Catholic doctrine told me I was lesser when I had once been more.
Whispers and giggles followed me
as I opened to the Otherworld of Spirit—
humiliation from friends, from family,
the cruel sting of those closest to you.
So I screamed in silence—because that’s what I knew.
Even my spiritual path became policed:
teachers and leaders with one-way roads,
no room for what I was becoming.
Chronic illness weakened me while I tried to be what I was not—
fitting into frames when I needed to fit within myself.
The imprint of shame left me raw and unsure,
so I stayed silent. When I dared to speak or live my truth,
I was shamed, excluded, privately mocked—
the rolling eyes I pretended not to see.
I had become invisible—dismissed for being an aging woman
in a world slow to recognize the wisdom we carry.
Was it because I grew brave enough to become who I was—
a wise woman in relationship with Her Spirit, walking between worlds?
Angels, then Mother Goddesses—words that triggered fear and contempt.
Heresy to some. Threatening to small minds.
Why the fear? Because limiting beliefs keep life cramped and narrow.
My faith was boundless and self-owned; theirs was confined and controlled.
The Keening: When Silence Becomes Sacred Sound
The silent scream softened into a keening—grief for the woman I had been born to be,
not the one defined by patriarchal fear and obedience.
I realized I was not separate from the cosmos: I was its echo, its expression.
Turning away from the chorus of judgment, I freed myself to be
the authentic woman I had been meant to become,
no longer trapped by fear-fed institutions or corrupt authority.
Then gentle voices began to speak—the wind, rain, sunlight, and moonlight—all whispering love to me.
Divine Feminine Energies surrounded me and merged with My Being. After lifetimes of searching, I experienced a Sacred Reunion with my Own Spirit, My True Voice.
As I began channeling healing energy for myself and others, the split within me healed:
I was no longer disconnected from my Authentic Self. I had Reclaimed My Sacred, Timeless Voice.
We are beings of pure energy, connected to the Infinite Field of Consciousness.
Whether you call this Source, Divine Mother, or God—this is Your True Identity: eternally wise, whether you identify as a Wise Woman, Wise Man, or Wise Person.
Your human lifetime serves a Sacred Purpose: to Remember, Embrace, and Express this Spiritual Truth. You came here to return to living in conscious relationship with your Higher Self and Divine Nature.
**This Means Breaking Free From:**
– Mental slavery to narrow, limiting beliefs
– Controlled thinking that harms your authentic self
– Group mentalities that diminish your spirit
**And Stepping Into:**
– The freedom to rise into who you truly are
– Becoming the unified person/spirit you incarnated to be
– Expressing and experiencing your sacred voiceMystic Soul Messages
– Living as one with your spirit—one with your true self
You Are Free To BE The Complete, Integrated BEing You Came Here To Become.
Just Believe, Accept and Receive The Greatest Gift of YOU
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